Time keeps on rolling .... my goodness.

So, I didn't even post about getting thyroid cancer.  Isn't that funny that it wasn't one of those issues I cared to write about.  The things that were important were the blessings I got from it.  And the art ideas.  Mary, the REAL artist, told me she wanted to do an ART day with me!  Oh!  I started wracking my brain... what could I do!?  I didn't have enough talent and no ideas.  2 weeks of going back and forth.  I was thinking of an idea for a headboard, but nothing was coming to me.  Suddenly, the dam burst.  The ideas came so fast and furious.  I had to start writing them down.  And this isn't as convenient as the tablet I have in my purse.  I still can't get them all done but at least I have started.  I wanted to see if I could incorporate fabric into mosaic's.  As it turned out, when I wrapped little wood blocks in fabric, it looked quilted instead of like a mosaic.  So, I did a few "quilts".  Ones that I would have liked to have done if I could have made myself sit at the sewing machine.  (it still intimidates me.)  I did the one that was the experiment.  Got the question... what about faux applique?  Turns out that worked too.  I did a block of Ai's on the Affairs of the Heart.  Looked good.  I did a dragon, but still haven't glued it down yet.  It is on my list.  Then came the cancer.  (the rat bastid.)  So, I just glued things to wood until that was dealt with.  When I put it together, it was gorgeous to me.  Fun.  I put in lots of goodies.  Then had to see if I could do it again.  Yup.  Different.  Then again.  This time, I inked the edges to see if that would make it look more like tiles.  It did.  Then the snails trail pattern.  Next is a bargello.  I've got a notebook full of ideas.  I love life.  How friggin' fun is this, anyway! 

OH MY GOD!!! Is it really YOU!?

Can it be that simple, Lord?  I am awake at 4:40 in the morning, thinking I am finally learning to hear You.  And if it is so, it is frightfully simple.  I told Mary to ask the question out loud and the first voice, the clear one would be the answer.  Before we start to argue and vacillate.  So, I got up and forced myself to speak out loud to You.  And I think it really is You!  I asked, How do I get my ego out of the way so I can hear you.... and this is the answer I got.  From someones Facebook entry... Only crystal clear questions yield transparent answers.  LOL  God is a smartass.  Well, that makes sense to me!  If God is everything, and nothing and the stuff between, then he is also me. 

\How funny.  I finally, at least for the moment, believe God is actually talking to me, in me, hearing me, and I ask him "Can I just rest in You for a moment?"  I can finally, at least for the moment, ask Him ANYTHING!  And I just want to feel his presence as I go back to sleep.  I love you, God.  Help me be Your girl.  Day in and day out.  In all ways, always. 

The Fragments have puddled and rolled into a blob!!!!

Just like on the Terminator!!  I had healing from defining it.  Can't make myself revisit it, but not in a bad way.  It just doesn't seem relevant anymore.  So, I'm moving on.  I didn't really think about it until I spoke to my daughter Jaime about some things that keep coming up for her.  It was then that I remembered that I had no flash backs to my "ick" since defining the fragments.  So, I suggested the technique to her.  When we were younger, and there was pain, we would play a game.  How big is the pain, I would ask her.  What size box would it fit in?  What color is it?  Texture?  And pretty soon, the pain would be gone.  That seems to be what happened with me.  I don't expect to ever do the project called Fragments.  It remains extremely valuable to me.  Now, I'm playing with finding ways to incorporate fabric with mosaic's.  My first project was so fun.  It's framing a frog for Jaime.  The frog was from Hobby Lobby.  The rest is painted board, decoupage, fabric decoupaged onto tiles, some polymer clay tears.  I'm also trying out a series of tiny canvases to test out different ideas.  I will grout the tiny "gold bits" in a couple of days.  I've got a purple canvas ready to go.